All it took was to focus on what was in front of me. That meant NOT looking all the way down at the endless but beautiful set of moguls/bumps on the ski run below me this past winter. And by just committing to three bumps, and recommitting over and over, suddenly I was actually making it all that way down the steepest run I have ever navigated. What scared me a year ago, I had conquered. Not gracefully, mind you, and not quickly either, but whatever.
That’s what I’m trying to do now: just focus on what’s in front of me. If I look at the bigger picture, I get scared that the picture may not include kids. How can it be? To do all this, and end up here? To forgo so much?? What now? It feels empty? See, these questions are the start of it, and lead me into the land of frustration.
Just do the 3 bumps in front of you. See your focus and claim your intention. Clear your body and mind, just sweep out those cobwebs. Just one thing at a time. Trust that it will feel good, even. Know you will make it to your destination, even though it’s not in your field of vision right now.
These are the things I tell myself.
These are good things to focus on. These are the things that I need to remember right now. One thing at a time. One day at a time.
ReplyDeleteYour writing is beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. You have had way too many, especially considering one is too many.
ReplyDeleteI am new to your blog from Mel's situation room.
welcome, roccie -- thanks for your thoughts,
ReplyDeleteThis is a really great way of looking at things. I think this post has helped me more than my counsellor appointment next week will! Thanks!
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